Psalm 139:13-16
I have many fears for my children as a mother. And it is during those difficult times that my faith is tested. I love my children more than anything on this earth. As I'm sure, all mothers do.
A few weeks ago, Kainan was sick. He had a high fever that I just couldn't get to come down, no matter what I did. The tests at the emergency department showed his white blood count was high. Double what it should have been.
During the time that all of the tests were being done (Doesn't it seem like an eternity before getting results for these things!?!?!) is when I was at my weakest in my faith. I wondered if God was going to make me sit back and watch as my child fought some sort of hideous illness or disease.
I KNEW that God wasn't going to give me more than He knew I could handle. (My understanding of what I can handle & His knowing of what I can handle, never seem to be on the same level!) But I was terrified. A dear friend sent me this scripture.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
(Psalm 139:13-16).
Reading this calmed me. REMINDED me. That as much as I love my children, God loves them MORE THAN I DO...so much more than I can ever imagine. He doesn't want to see them hurt or sick any more than I do.
A few weeks ago, Kainan was sick. He had a high fever that I just couldn't get to come down, no matter what I did. The tests at the emergency department showed his white blood count was high. Double what it should have been.
During the time that all of the tests were being done (Doesn't it seem like an eternity before getting results for these things!?!?!) is when I was at my weakest in my faith. I wondered if God was going to make me sit back and watch as my child fought some sort of hideous illness or disease.
I KNEW that God wasn't going to give me more than He knew I could handle. (My understanding of what I can handle & His knowing of what I can handle, never seem to be on the same level!) But I was terrified. A dear friend sent me this scripture.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
(Psalm 139:13-16).
Reading this calmed me. REMINDED me. That as much as I love my children, God loves them MORE THAN I DO...so much more than I can ever imagine. He doesn't want to see them hurt or sick any more than I do.
beautifully stated. thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThank you Lora...it's hard to word things the way I feel them or see them going in my head. I'm usually good with words...until there is an audience that I feel like I should be "inspiring".....LOL
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